SANTA!

Landon's words to Santa,

"I love you, Santa. Can you bring me a big truck now, please Santa?"

Long time, no see...

It's been a long time since I've been here...so long that when I read my last post, I laughed...dieting. Ha.

On October 21, the boys and I took off to my parents in Houston and the whole diet thing...yeeeeah...it's hard to diet at mom's house!

I have been wanting to post this blog so badly, but didn't have access to a computer while we were away and I'm not about to sit on my iPhone for 2 hours trying to type out what I need to say, so here goes...

Jason was gone for 35 days...the longest 35 days of my life. He was in Oklahoma City for radar training. I had originally gone to my mom's to visit for a week and a half...I came home, stayed for 3 days, almost lost my mind, and went back. Taking care of EVERYTHING by myself is.not.for.me. I truly felt like a single mom, I cried, I hated it. Even though we have facetime on our phones and we got to talk to Jason everyday, something was always missing... Landon was misbehaving because daddy was gone. Lane was, well, being a newborn. The house was a wreck. I didn't know how to cook dinner and balance everything. I couldn't clean up. Laundry was spilling over. The many, many complaints that I had ever voiced to Jason, I took back in those days. I missed him with my whole heart. I missed him being with us, play fighting with Landon on the floor while I cook dinner. I missed him scooping Lane up when he started to fuss and telling him "it's ok, tough guy", I missed looking forward to him walking through the door at the end of the day, I missed him sitting at the dinner table with us, I missed him going to bed with me, I missed him next to me in church, I missed him in the car, I could go on and on...I missed EVERYTHING. I realized over the last month all the little things that Jason does that help me tremendously. I realized that this is a team and without him, it doesn't work so well. I realized more than ever how deeply in love I am with him. He drives me completely insane sometimes, but still...I'll keep him. With all of that being said, I give props to all the single moms out there and all of those military spouses with their other half deployed...it's a HARD job. Jason met us in Houston the Tuesday before Thanksgiving, I was beside myself when I saw his car in front of the house. We spent the rest of the week with family and even got a night out with some of our best friends...minus kids. We are back home now...a family of 4 plus our puppy, Tess, and I'm trying very hard not to complain when Jason leaves his dirty dishes in the sink and socks in the middle of the floor!

Oh, and it's beginning to looks a lot like Christmas!